In the beginning God created heavens and the earth . The earth was without form and void and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the spirit of God was hovering on the face of the water. Then God said, “let there be light” and there was light.
Yes ... Talking about God the almighty is what matters here
God who created heavens and earth.... who created the light and the darkness ... God that created me to choose the right track.
God who created the light. The light of eyeballs ... the light of hearts ... the light of love ... the light of faith...
Then who did create darkness ?
Were human beings so mean so they started creating darkness all over them ?
Isn't enough that we forced Noah to make the hardest effort so we can survive ?
Isn't enough that we forced Moses to run away and twice splitting water ?
Isn't enough that we crucified Jesus and let him suffer with his companions ?
Isn't enough that we have changed Muhammad's message to fit our mood ?
Now what are you trying to do since God stopped sending Messengers ...
Tell me what's the sin of Ahmad ?
Tell me what's William's fault ?
What has Ali done wrong ?
Was Benjamin a bad seed ?
God Damn It ... why do we have to suffer cuz of our names and families ?
Why are we disguising behind a religion to get to some valueless goals?
Isn't religion a peace of mind and heart ? Why is it taking that from us ?
How come religion started to be a war instead of a serenity ?
Did God forbid us from loving each other and prefered a religion over love ?
Can't we all be one hand living in peace ?
Can't we live together and share our feelings on the face of earth since it might be meant to us to be in the same heaven or same hell ?
Can't we find light again ?
I don't think we can ..... It's cuz of you and me
ONLY cuz of you and me.
We are the ones stealing the light from us.

I still remember the world from the eyes of a child looking out through the dirty glass of his window in his sky-blue castle.
That window is not dirty cuz birdies wanted to bless it with a random-shaped mark, and not cuz that lovely lady of the house didn’t rub it clean with the same hands that were caressing that child's hair to wake him up…
That window is dirty cuz of the mist that I didn’t recognize if it's from the inside or the outside… what do you expect I was a kido for god's sake.
Watching the world goes by as the rain drops falling everywhere embracing everyone.
A tousled-bearded long shadow wearing a tiara and looking up at the sky praising God for this blissful rain… wow that beard contains more water than a sponge … bless you Amen.
A beautiful lady with a long dress looking out from her balcony raising three fingers like she is counting the rain drops
A lil tiny girl cuddled in fur and heavy scarves is rolling down the street to be back home again and sit next to the warm heater and start sipping her mommy's hot lentil's soup... that's a yummy soup as I recall...
A well-dressed guy waves a greeting to a speeding car driver and the guy next to the drivers waves back with a grin
Two love birds walking with wet hair locks and God put a smile upon their faces while their eyes are shimmering with passion ...what do muddy pants have to do with love … still don’t get it!!
Whatever it means to you …. Know that everything goes in circles.
Looking out from the same window after twenty years… to see the same old people with different faces ...and of course different hairstyles
The long shadow bearded old man is looking up to check what's underneath the long dress of the beautiful lady on the balcony. The lady raising seven fingers calling " seven hundreds … what do you think ?? " the old gray-haired man in tiara screams " what!! That's expensive " … May rain wash our sins away Amen.
The tiny lil girl is rolling back home as well but what a home!! … What a pity!! … an empty home with a divorced parents and a brother in prison for moral impiety
The well dressed guy is splattered all over with mud by the speedy car … he is shouting his guts out with curses that really needs an interpreter to help you understand them… the young boy next to the driver manifests his head from the window and scream out " CHAOS "
Passionate eyes of love birds became lustful while the he is pulling the she into his web of sin in his empty apartment where there's no one but his tiny rolling sister that will come back from school soon to be shocked by her other brother.
Damn it's hard to hold a candle in the cold December rain I better back off this window and start thinking what would this window show me in another twenty tears from now.

They r days that make you fly...They're days you wanna cry
Sometimes the walls come tumbling down
They're moments in the dark….When pain just floods your heart
And you surrender one more time
Just take a walk out in the rain
With every drop that falls you know the sun will shine again

They're days you're naturally high…They're days you wanna die
Sometimes your world goes down in flames
They're moments deep in love…But when it breaks your heart
You just surrender one more time
Just take a walk out in the rain
With every step you make…you learn that life means constant change

Tomorrow's all that counts…as life goes round 'n round
you gotta draw the line…goodbye yesterday
Tomorrow's all that counts…as life goes round 'n round
And if you keep the faith…time will call your name

Surfing the net as usual trying to find answers to finally hit something that might give me more questions to ask
A book called ( 50 Things You Are Not Supposed To Know )

Right here and now I'll write down those 50 things mixed with the stream of a 50 messed up thoughts of mine that You are not supposed to know as well…

01 The Ten Commandments We Always See Aren't the Ten Commandments
- Media would even try to change God's concept one day …that's normal man.
02 One of the Popes Wrote an Erotic Book
- After all we are all human beings so leave the pope alone.
03 The CIA Commits Over 100,000 Serious Crimes Each Year
- only 100 000 ??!! strange!! There are more than 10000 in my street
04 The First CIA Agent to Die in the Line of Duty Was Douglas Mackiernan
- who cares?!
05 After 9/11, the Defense Department Wanted to Poison Afghanistan's Food Supply
- As if they were not doing that before 9/11
06 The US Government Lies About the Number of Terrorism Convictions It Obtains
- For God's sake … US governments lies about heavens existence
07 The US Is Planning to Provoke Terrorist Attacks
- Is this an old book helloooo !! damn I started suspecting I'm a terrorist .. it's becoming stylish.
08 The US and Soviet Union Considered Detonating Nuclear Bombs on the Moon
- Hehe I guess someone's valentine stopped them
09 Two Atomic Bombs Were Dropped on North Carolina
- Hoping for more chaos :D
10 World War III Almost Started in 1995
- According to the freemasonic domination plan this is kinda late…damn those guys should be in chess club.
11 The Korean War Never Ended
- My sandwich didn’t end so far… wanna start a race?
12 Agent Orange Was Used in Korea
- Is Agent Orange a relative to Agnet 007??
13 Kent State Wasn't the Only — or Even the First — Massacre of College Students During the Vietnam Era
- No comment
14 Winston Churchill Believed in a Worldwide Jewish Conspiracy
- Illuminati
15 The Auschwitz Tattoo Was Originally an IBM Code Number
- No thanks I prefer gothic tattoos .. at least I know where they are coming from
16 Adolph Hitler's Blood Relatives Are Alive and Well in New York State
- Hope they are not planning for something bad :(
17 Around One Quarter of "Witches" Were Men
- Still I prefer female witches ... thanks for asking anyways
18 The Virginia Colonists Practiced Cannibalism
- Yuchk...
19 Many of the Pioneering Feminists Opposed Abortion
- Leave them alone.
20 Black People Served in the Confederate Army
- Brothers in arms but no equality down the streets… ironic
21 Electric Cars Have Been Around Since the 1880s
- Yes and actually maybe energy shifting is out there as well
22 Juries Are Allowed to Judge the Law, Not Just the Facts
- Damn I wanna be in jury once.
23 The Police Aren't Legally Obligated to Protect You
- Then what did God created them for ?
24 The Government Can Take Your House and Land, Then Sell Them to Private Corporations
- Ouch… what if I don’t have a house ??
25 The Supreme Court Has Ruled That You're Allowed to Ingest Any Drug, Especially If You're an Addict
- Freedom
26 The Age of Consent in Most of the US Is Not Eighteen
- Damn I feel old enough to rule the world.
27 Most Scientists Don't Read All of the Articles They Cite
- They should have time for having sex man.
28 Louis Pasteur Suppressed Experiments That Didn't Support His Theories
- Ok.
29 The Creator of the GAIA Hypothesis Supports Nuclear Power
- Who doesn’t??
30 Genetically-Engineered Humans Have Already Been Born
- I'm raising a cattle of them on my building's roof :D
31 The Insurance Industry Wants to Genetically Test All Policy Holders
- Do they need employees there ??
32 Smoking Causes Problems Other Than Lung Cancer and Heart Disease
- OMG … really ??!!
33 Herds of Milk-Producing Cows Are Rife With Bovine Leukemia Virus
- Yum yum. Virus-full milk is so tasty
34 Most Doctors Don't Know the Radiation Level of CAT Scans
- Neither do I.
35 Medication Errors Kill Thousands Each Year
- Tell me about it. Poor grand ma.
36 Prescription Drugs Kill Over 100,000 Annually
- Tell me about it. Poor don’t know how.
37 Work Kills More People Than War
- Tell me about it… Poor me
38 The Suicide Rate Is Highest Among the Elderly
- They wanna race time.
39 For Low-Risk People, a Positive Result from an HIV Test Is Wrong Half the Time
- Is it supposed to be right half the time ??
40 DNA Matching Is Not Infallible
- NO WAY.
41 An FBI Expert Testified That Lie Detectors Are Worthless for Security Screening
- Why are they using it then?
42 The Bayer Company Made Heroin
- Those guys are creative MWHAAHAHAHAHAHA. … just kidding
43 LSD Has Been Used Successfully in Psychiatric Therapy
- I guess they hypnotize them … not tranquilize them… !
44 Carl Sagan Was an Avid Pot-Smoker
- HEHE…
45 One of the Heroes of Black Hawk Down Is a Convicted Child Molester
- Shame on You Mr One of the Heroes of Black Hawk Down
46 The Auto Industry Says That SUV Drivers Are Selfish and Insecure
- Never been told.
47 The Word "Squaw" Is Not a Derisive Term for the Vagina
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48 You Can Mail Letters for Little or No Cost
- Emails are nicer … you can send winks via email.
49 Advertisers' Influence on the News Media Is Widespread
- Looking for God on silver screens…they've got even dream machines…
50 The World's Museums Contain Innumerable Fakes
- Poor Robert Langdon :(

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